~Nimindil

woah, I justr ealised my age still says 16.. while I'm almos 18 now.. haha, I forget to update this fucking profile too often.....

Yes I'ms till alive, but can;t relaly eb btohered to uplaod much, doing pre schooling for arta cacdemy now, becasue wel, fashion sucked and waas a bit much below what I cna dow(I made sosm very nifty victiorian style hoop dresses... <3) and yeah.... I've switched guys I like AGAIN.... but this one's worthj it, cause he's stilla sweetheart to me and stuff and just <3 blah fuck it.

Hlelo, poeple, yes I write journals still too, though you really couldn;t care.

I might sometimes write a journal about big things going on in my life
9likeyou give a shit) (: Oh no more rambling about Jens either, I decided to move on. theres another guy I liek right nopw, he;s a good friend, he know,s we'lls ee how it goes.

Today I'm gonna go to a local themepark(de Efteling) with... oh 130-140 poeple xd yay! vf meet xD

also now-a-days I get callled a cyber-goth, I went back to beeing flippy and extreme, because hell even some adjustment didn;t help me get what I wnated so fuck it. Only frooblem is now they tend to try and mob me and throw things at me e.e wwhich pisses off my friends, who're mostly guys,. mostly well-mucled and mostly with deep hidden frustrations they'll LOVE to beat out. myeah o-O

anyhow not much time, further ramblings tonigth,b yes!

"I am the girl kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother that I am a lesbian.

I am the prostitute working the streets because nobody will hire a transsexual woman.

I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful, tear-filled nights.

We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time.

I am the man who died alone in the hospital because they would not let my partner of twenty-seven years into the room.

I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away from the two fathers who are the only loving family I have ever had. I wish they could adopt me.

I am one of the lucky ones, I guess. I survived the attack that left me in a coma for three weeks, and in another year I will probably be able to walk again.

I am not one of the lucky ones. I killed myself just weeks before graduating high school. It was simply too much to bear.

We are the couple who had the realtor hang up on us when she found out we wanted to rent a one-bedroom for two men.

I am the person who never knows which bathroom I should use if I want to avoid getting the management called on me.

I am the mother who is not allowed to even visit the children I bore, nursed, and raised. The court says I am an unfit mother because I now live with another woman.

I am the domestic-violence survivor who found the support system grow suddenly cold and distant when they found out my abusive partner is also a woman.

I am the domestic-violence survivor who has no support system to turn to because I am male.

I am the father who has never hugged his son because I grew up afraid to show affection to other men.

I am the home-economics teacher who always wanted to teach gym until someone told me that only lesbians do that.

I am the man who died when the paramedics stopped treating me as soon as they realized I was transsexual.

I am the person who feels guilty because I think I could be a much better person if I didn’t have to always deal with society hating me.

I am the man who stopped attending church, not because I don't believe, but because they closed their doors to my kind.

I am the person who has to hide what this world needs most, love.

Repost this if you believe homophobia is wrong."

God look what my friend, Shintei made me, late for my B-day..
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<3<3 lotsa love shin.. you inspired me..

Lot's has happaned since my last entry and I won't go into it, unless you ask me, it;s too vaunerable for.. certain people to know. I don;t know if I'll be uploading I just.. dunno.

Thanks to all my friends out there. <3

yay! Ok I'm hyper.. The hives+ Oil paint fumes and terpentine fumes have a very funny effect on me (:

Ok ok ok like.. monday I'll be like.. 16 and like allowed to drink and like have a scooter and like.. yeah... I like like... I sya it lots... wheej.. why doens;t this chair spin.. dmanit..

Yeah so I'm still me, still isnane, still a nutcase... still not over Jens(gosh shame on me!) I should SO make a bet wuith my general sience teach, sicn ehe told me before the year was through I'd find someone new.., I won't... hmm what to ask... o-O

Yeah so, 16 still feels too young... funny, why do I always feel twoor three years older? hmmm... doougnuts.... haven;t had those in year.... RANBDOMESS YAY blasphomy!

Oh how friolous.. yes be afraid if my vocab.. foofah!

so yeah I've bene inactive, will prolyl stay that way too... since.. I'm laze, and poeple here tend to botehr me(*cough*tan, kim*cough/*) o-O yay.